Rachel's debut album, Say
Goodbye, is now available online here:
Order Rachel's debut album, Say
Goodbye, online at http://cdbaby.com/cd/efron.
Download tracks from Apple iTunes at
Rachel
Efron: Say Goodbye.
Stream Rachel's recent live radio show
on Berkeley's KPFA 94.1: http://www.kpfa.org/archives/index.php?date=2006-08-24
Lyrics
What I Know
You say they never were your words to
speak
Alone, apart is where you find your peace
You trace the moon along a frosted road
And find the shadows pictures of your need
Build yourself in silence before you
make a sound
Sympathy or pretense I'm going back to see her
And I'll protect and tell her what I know
I've read the book of words that is your
life
I'll be the place where girl and woman meet
Build yourself in silence before you
make a sound
Sympathy or pretense I'm going back to see her
And I'll protect and tell her
How I have longed to help her
Close Your Eyes
The colors that bloom with sunrise
Do not themselves bring morning
I step outside in darkness
The streetlight marks my longing
Evening explodes with thunder
Falling shards of white noise
People below are listening
For clues of what they know they love
Cause it's easy now
To trust what can't hurt you
And it's easy too
To see this as simple
But in the quiet of your room
All this red can fade to blues
Close your eyes baby close your eyes
Tell me about your passion
I'll reconnect the splittings
A movement in desperation
Is blinded by the light of war
Fast As I Can
Now that I speak
Loose a little breath with each word I say
I'm turning back
Find myself inside my silence again
Woman bleeds twice
Every time she gives herself up to love
What did you do
Morning of the evening that you were loved?
Crossed I fracture the distance to who
I am
Fast as I can
My moon is new
Any other light would give me away
Passion or blues
Try to live a lifetime every day
Crossed I fracture the distance to who
I am
Now I'm building the great wall to let you in
Fast as I can
Say Goodbye
There is the road
Clearer in the dark
But where do you start when it's the end?
Call to me loud
Absence brings the edges out around me
Summer comes to tell you that she loves
you less
Summer goes before she tells you why
And though you beg for the mercy of restlessness
The night is setting in
And I am setting in
To show you I am brave and say goodbye
What I have lost
Comforts me like rain
And all I have gained just watches on
Think of me then
She's the one you've broken to understand
And though you make me a gift of your
helplessness
The night is setting in
Like night I'm setting in
To show you I am brave and say goodbye
Sentimental Love
How many ways do I know him?
Strong like the promise of time
Once more he tells me
What he can't show me
Gentle without confidence
Sleep is a sweeter submission
Take me away from this bed
Dreams of another
Walking together
Sunrise like a memory
I'd come undone
Or choose the one who would not hold me tighter
A sentimental love
One minute longer to see him
Rest in the edge of his smile
Call me a woman
Sister to someone
Cooler than my innocence
An Afterthought (Melting to You)
I can hear you calling me down to see you
I remember this still I go for you
How have you been so calm as I try to forget you?
I was lost in overused words one time
I woke up this morning and they were all mine
How have you been so calm as I try to forget you?
And how have I been so fierce, so tender melting to you?
How can you stand to witness all that
we have been through?
And how have I been so fierce, so tender melting to you?
Same Three Things (Quiet Girl's Blues)
November's disappeared
With its dispassionate rain
When I feel my life begin
I know what I should do
But this is you
So I drink it down again
I learn the same three things a hundred
times
And I'm living three lives inside of my mind
I learned this thing but not with you
Guess I forgot who I was talking to
Keep me talking
I may be old for this
But I'm just too young to care
This want's the dress I wear
Cool femininity
Taunting me
Tangled in my hair
Oh this is not to say I'll always feel
this way
If I could find the words maybe someday I could be with you
Underneath The Moon
You know I'll meet you in the afternoon
You know I love to see the lilac trees in bloom
But now the evidence of love is clear
And as the evening sets you move to draw me near
Underneath the moon
Tell me all your secrets won't you soon
Speak to me before I slip away
Guide my heart into another day
And I will stay with you
I could stay with you
This is the romance I've been dreaming
of
Rewrite my history of so much wasted love
You know I love it when you say my name
The way I hear your voice is never quite the same
Want to stay with you
I could stay with you
Goodnight My Dear
Underneath your weight
I could crawl inside you
Stretched across the night
Voiceless in your breathing
Fierce as I have been
I can still remember
This is her same mind
This is her same body
You know after all this closeness you
must leave me tangled in fear
I can't understand
Closeness turns to absence
I believe it is
My own words that haunt me
You know after all this closeness you
must leave me tangled in fear
Here's my sacrifice to history I'll kiss you goodnight my dear
Help Me Down
Careless I smile at you
Gesture to be with you
If you knew how
Would you help me down
To the love I hold inside of me?
You are so sweet to me
Behold what's good in me
All I know now is emptied into the past
somehow
And all I'm left with is longing
Let go the precious things
See what the quiet brings
If you knew how would you help me down?
And if I knew how would I climb on down?
If I told you how would you help me down
To the love I hold inside of me?
Solstice
Thirteenth of a January
Eighteenth of the coming June
I am here
If I could be there too
To heal is a promise broken
To hurt is the coldest storm
I heal strong
Hurt like the falling snow
The storm is ended
But I am still
Tangled in branches under the ice
I hear her calling
Or is that the wind?
What history thins my conscience?
What present would dare endure?
She's a girl
Snowflakes too young to know
There is not one new life within me
Well tell me what the other women do
This year the solstice passes
And still I'm trying to see this through
For the ones who came before me
And told me to pretend
That I could live without her
As I have lost her again and again and again
The storm is ended
But I am still
Tangled in branches under the ice
I hear her calling
I hear her calling
To me she's calling
Or is that the wind?
